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http://www.highexistence.com/life-secrets-and-tips/ [Tuesday
December 7th, 2010 at 11:30pm]
  1. Memorize something everyday. Not only will this leave your brain sharp and your memory functioning, you will also have a huge library of quotes to bust out at any moment. Poetry, sayings and philosophies are your best options.
  2. Constantly try to reduce your attachment to possessions. Those who are heavy set with material desires will have a lot of trouble when their things are taken away from them or lost. Possessions do end up owning you, not the other way around. Become a person of minimal needs and you will be much more content.
  3. Develop an endless curiosity about this world. Become an explorer and view the world as your jungle. Stop and observe all of the little things as completely unique events. Try new things. Get out of your comfort zone and try to experience as many different environments and sensations as possible. This world has so much to offer, so why not take advantage of it?
  4. Remember people’s names so that they feel appreciated and for your own future benefit when you want something from that person. To do this, say their name back to them when they introduce themselves. Then repeat the name in your head a number of times until you are sure you have it. Continue to use their name in conversation as much as possible to remove any chance of forgetting it. If you’re still having trouble, make up a rhyme about their name: “Dan the Man” or “Natalie flatters me.”
  5. Get fit! It’s ridiculous to think that we have one body, one sole means of functioning, and people are too lazy to take care of themselves. Fit bodies lead to better health, confidence and more success with the opposite sex. I’d say those are 3 very good reasons to get in shape.
  6. Learn to focus only on the present. The past is unchangeable so it is futile to reflect on it unless you are making sure you do not repeat past mistakes. The future is but a result of your actions today. So learn from the past to do better in the present so that you can succeed in the future.
  7. Even more specifically, live in THIS moment. Even 10 minutes ago is the past. If you live purely in this moment you will always be happy because there is nothing wrong in this split-second.
  8. Smile more often. Whenever you get a grin on your face, your brain is releasing serotonin, the happy hormone. Smiling is the natural way to force yourself to be happy. Many people even smile for five minutes straight in the morning to get themselves in a great mood for the day. It is a very powerful tool that is utilized less and less as we grow older and need happiness more than ever. Just remember that while happiness leads to smiles, smiles also lead to happiness.
  9. Drink water. Hydration is tremendously important for overall health. Soda has absolutely ZERO nutritional content; it’s like pouring a punch of sugar and syrup into your cup. Instead, fill it with life-replenishing water. It may taste plain at first if you’re coming off of a heavy soda-drinking streak, but you’ll soon find yourself addicted to it. 10 glasses per day is optimal, how many have you been getting lately?
  10. Don’t take life so seriously! Learn to laugh at the little things and this whole “existence” thing will be a whole lot easier. Be amused by your mistakes and failures and be thankful that you learned your lesson and won’t mess up like that again. And most importantly do things that you enjoy! Life is not strictly business, it can be mixed with pleasure.
  11. Think positive thoughts. When you find yourself thinking a negative thought, stop it immediately by any means necessary. Slap yourself in the face, yell something positive at the top of your lungs or jump up and down. Do whatever it takes to get back to a positive mindset as such is essential for continual happiness and success.
  12. Read books. No explanation needed.
  13. Get in the sun. Superman was completely re-energized when he flew out to space and soaked in some rays and you can do the same right outside your front door (if you live in a constantly dreary place, my apologies). The sun feels amazing: your entire body will be coursing with warmth and life.
  14. Help others. I’ll just give you a plethora of reasons why this is a MUST
    • Helping people has a ripple effect. If you help someone they will feel more obliged to help someone else, and so on. Pay it forward
    • You grow by giving and helping others. It can change you in ways you never expected
    • Your relationship with that person will become stronger
    • It’s the most fulfilling thing you can do on this planet. It not only feels amazing physically, you also feel like a good person
    • You might be able to call in a favor later when you need some help
    • Karma (if you believe in it)
    • Because there are more people in this world than just you
  15. Set aside a specific time to worry each day. Ponder all of your problems and anxieties during that time so that they will not distract you during work or moments of pleasure. This way you can be extremely efficient with your time and avoid focusing on negative things as much as possible. If you get all of your worry out of the way and have the mental fortitude to keep from reverting back to them, you will be much happier on the daily.
  16. Be honest at all times. Lies lead to nothing but trouble. Being known as trustworthy is an excellent trait to maintain and essential to having integrity.
  17. Sleep less. Fully adjusting to a new sleep cycle can take up to 21 days so don’t give up if you feel tired after switching to 5-hour nights. The “required” 8 hour/night is for normal people. If you’re reading THIS article on THIS site, you are not normal. So figure out how much sleep YOU really need and adjust accordingly. As enjoyable as sleep is, waking existence is much more fulfilling and efficient. IF this really sparks your interest, check out alternate sleep cycles with which you can be fine off of 2 hours of sleep per day.
  18. Read “Bringers of Light” and “Conversations with God” by Neale Donald Walsch. These books will help you decide what you want to do in this life and how to get to that point. They will also profoundly change the way you look at the purpose of existence. Read them!
  19. Figure out what your goals and dreams are. So many people wander aimlessly through life simply go for whatever small thing they want moment by moment. Instead, decide what your perfect life consists of and begin to put the steps in motion to reach that place. The most satisfying thing in the world (yes, better than sex, much better) is overcoming a challenge and reaching a goal. We are the happiest when we are growing and working towards something better.
  20. Start your day off right. Wake up and set aside an hour for personal development activities (meditation, self-introspection, observing nature, etc.) Do the things that make you feel blissful, optimistic and empowered so that you can set a positive tone for your day. I guarantee that once you start doing this, your days will be more enjoyable and fulfilling. Today is going to be the best day of your life. Duh.
  21. Utilize ‘The Burning Method.’ Whenever a fear or worry or complaint comes to mind, close your eyes and imagine writing down the thought on a piece of paper. Then proceed to light the paper and fire and watch it disintegrate. Even better, actually write it down and burn it. You won’t have any problem ridding your mind of the thought after doing this.
  22. Travel. Anyone who has ever gone anywhere will tell you that traveling is one of the most exciting and life-changing activities that you can do. Observing a different culture will expand your mind while making you further appreciate the life you already live. This goes back to becoming an explorer: this world is your jungle so go explore! Who knows, maybe you’ll find a place you love so much that you decide to move. Imagine the positive repercussions a new environment could have on your life.
  23. The Rubber Band Method This is the third and final way to rid yourself of negative thoughts (hopefully by now you have figured out that this is very important!). Place a rubber band around your wrist and snap it against your skin anytime a negative thought finds its way into your head. This classical conditioning technique associates a slight pain with negative thoughts like Pavlov associated food/salivation with the sound of a bell. Sounds a bit cruel at first but it only stings for a second, I promise. Plus the outcome, having only positive thoughts, far outweighs a little slap on the wrist here and there.
  24. Learn to be unaffected by the words of others. Most people get very upset when they are called negative names by others, but there is a simple trick to overcoming this. Here it is: If I went up to you and called you a fire hydrant, would you be upset? Of course not. Obviously you are not a fire hydrant, you are a human being. The same concept applies to when someone calls you something that you know you are not. They are foolish for saying such things, so why would you react with such anger? The only exception is when someone calls you something that is true! In this case, you should thank them for alerting you to a weakness, one that you can now work on changing.
  25. Read “Zen and the Art of Happiness” by Chris Prentiss. This book will give you the knowledge and instruction to be happy at all times regardless of the circumstances. Yes, this sounds like an oversimplification of happiness, but I assure you that this book will change you in an amazing way.
  26. Develop the ability to forgive. Forgiveness is something that most people fail miserably at even thought it’s so simple. Grudges only bring more misery to those who hold them and prevent good relations with the target. YOU makes mistakes all of the time so why not have mercy when other do? Remaining angry feels horrible while forgiving someone brings a refreshing sensation to the mind and healing to the relationship.
  27. Be the person that makes others feel special. Be known for your kindness and sympathy.
  28. Learn to lucid dream, or to realize when you are dreaming so that you can control your dreams. Sleep feels good, but its rather boring and unproductive. With lucid dreaming under your belt, night time can be even more exciting than when you are awake. You can do anything: fly, travel to other planets, party with a celebrity, get intimate with your dream boy/girl, etc. Many lucid dreams have also reported being able to speak directly with the subconscious during dreams by demanding to be taken to it after becoming lucid. For those that know a thing or two about your subconscious, that is a BIG deal.
  29. Visualize daily. It has been said and proven time and time again that what you focus on is what you get. If you complain all of the time, you will run into more of the things you complain about. The same goes for good things like health, wealth and happiness. So spend some time in the morning imagining yourself achieving whatever it is that you currently desire. Focus is key in this exercise, so choose a quiet environment where you won’t be disturbed. If you’re having trouble focusing and continually find that your mind has wandered to something else, read about meditation in the following life tip. There is a lot more to this concept, so check out the full article on visualization and the law of attraction here.
  30. Meditate everyday for at least 20 minutes. In this modern world where everyone is so connected to everything else via cell phones, TV and internet, most people rarely enjoy the beauty of silence. The ability to quiet your mind and relax your body is an art and skill that everyone should develop. Simply sit somewhere, preferably in nature, and focus on your breathing or try to think about nothing. This is going to be extremely hard at first! You might find it boring or just plain impossible to think of nothing, but you will get better and you will learn to love it. Post-meditation, you will feel extremely clear headed and.. well, just plain wonderful. The only way to really understand this sensation is to try it.
  31. Learn to control your mind. What kind of skilled human are you if you cannot even control your own thoughts? While the human mind is described as being a stream of consciousness, that does not mean you can’t decide where your stream flows. Techniques like meditation and the 3 ways to flush out negative thoughts will aid you immensely in learning to control your mind.
  32. Learn to control your emotions. The only person that can make you unhappy is you! You are the one that decides to be affected by the words and actions of others. Realize this so that the next time you experience a negative emotion, you can find the strength within yourself to overcome it.
  33. Take a class in speed reading. Books are full of information that can enhance your knowledge-base, vocabulary and yourself as a person. Speed reading is an easy way to get at this info faster so that you can have more time for other endeavors.
  34. Relax! This one is for you work-o-holics out there (myself included). Yes, work is very important and productive but you need to take some time to chill out everyday or you are going to burn out faster than a candle with no oxygen. Additionally, you need to reward yourself for a job well done. What’s the use of doing all of that work if you can’t have a little fun from time to time anyways?
  35. Work on making good first impressions. Practice a strong, firm handshake and the small talk that generally goes along with meeting someone for the first time. People won’t know what to think of you if you have nothing more to say beyond “My name is _______, nice to meet you.” Also make sure you remember names, as mentioned previously. Who knows, you may be going into business with or marrying this person you’re meeting for the first time if you make a good impression. Be sure and make an excellent one.
  36. Learn to use your eyes to their full potential:
    • Make constant eye contact when in conversation. Looking away (especially down) is a sign of inferiority and unsureness. Instead, look at your conversation partner dead in the eyes and keep them locked on
    • Master the piercing stare. You know when someone looks at you and it feels like they can see into your soul? Well that’s not a hereditary characteristic, it just takes practice. Work on sharpening your gaze in the mirror. You’ll know you have it when it’s intimidating to continue looking at yourself
    • Master the one-eyebrow raise. This one isn’t necessary by any means, but hey, why not? Pick a brow to learn with and go look in a mirror. Raise both of your eyebrows but use your hand to hold down the brow that you want to stay down. This will probably feel very stupid at first but if you keep trying, you will eventually pin down the muscle you need to flex to get that one brow up
  37. Be mysterious. Don’t let off everything about you and definitely leave out some major details. There is something both alluring and mesmerizing about someone that no one knows fully about. I’m not saying to confide in no one or to alienate yourself. Just think James Bond.
  38. Come up with a life mantra. You know, like “Carpe Diem” or “Live life to the fullest,” but not as cliché. Make it something that really hits home with you so that you will actually stick to it. Make sure it’ not so specific that it rarely applies but also not so general that it’s not personal.
  39. Get good at something. Call it a hobby or a passion, whatever it is, just get damn good at it. Your occupation does not count! Make it something that you can practice often enough to excel at. Examples: Magic tricks, surfing, ping pong, creating short films, and unicycling. It can be anything but I would recommend choosing something that: 1) You are passionate about 2) You can bust out at any moment to display your skills for any discerning crowd. My mind goes immediately to aerobatics and break dancing, but that’s just me.
  40. Work out those abs. Above any other muscle group in the entire body, the abs are the most important AND, for guys, the most impressive to the opposite sex. They constitute your core, the center point of your body. Your ability to balance comes almost completely from the strength of your abdominal muscles and balance is vital to performance in any physical activity. Summary: they’re very important. For more info on how to work out your abs, check out this video.
  41. Keep your brain sharp. The majority of people are stuck in ruts. They go to the same job everyday, hang out with the same friends and eat at the same places. While that may feel safe, it’s not the most stimulating lifestyle for your brain. Those synapses have been built up enough, so try something that you do NOT know how to do! Buy a model car kit, master the art of sudoku or crosswords, or go pick up another major at your nearest college. The point is you need to be learning new things to keep your brain honest. Form new synapses by forcing your mind to work in ways it has not worked before. Just like physical workouts, doing too much of the same exercise will eventually give no results. Switch it up!
  42. Read something inspirational right before bed and after waking. This will set get you in a great mood for sleep and for the day. Read anything from a famous speech to your favorite self-improvement book. Try to read something that get’s you really excited in the morning especially so that you’ll leave your house beaming with energy and wonder.
  43. Do what you love. There is a huge difference between making a life and making a living; which one are you making right now? So many spend their entire lives trying to make as much money as possible so that they can afford to do what they really want later. It makes no sense to settle in life until you’re 65 so that you can retire and do what you want when you’re already WAY past your prime. We only live life once so why wouldn’t you want to spend it pursuing your bliss? To do anything else would be a tragic waste of the freedom you are allowed if you are reading this right now. Follow your bliss and you will be a thousand times more happy than your retirement date and 40+ years younger.
  44. Choose your friends wisely. You are affected far more than you think by the people you spend your time with. Do your friends share your values? Do they encourage you when you speak of your goals and dreams or do they scoff? Make sure the people around you are conducive to the lifestyle you want to lead or you will find yourself being dragged again and again into behavior that distances you from your desires. Friends with a habit of producing negative thoughts will especially hinder you. This can be a hard task to follow through with if you realize you good friend is one of these saboteurs, but you must be firm! Don’t let anyone get in the way of you being all that you can be.
  45. Don’t burn bridges. By that I mean maintain your relationships with people even if you think you are never going to see them again. For example, if you are quitting your job, don’t chew out your boss before leaving! You might run into him/her again later and life and wish you had never severed ties so harshly. You never know when you might need the help of someone you knew in the past. Plus there is already too much hatred in this world, why add more towards the people you interact with?
  46. Keep a journal/diary. It sounds like a very monotonous habit at first, but when you get into it, that little book will become a great way to organize your thoughts and track your growth over the years. Most of us already stay awake in bed at night pondering the events of the day anyways so why not document those thoughts in an organized fashion? That will allow you to look back and observe how your way of thinking has changed over time.
  47. Read “New Pyscho-Cybernetics” by Dr. Maxwell Maltz. This book will explain why the content of your thoughts has such a profound effect on your life through religious, philosophical and scientific arguments. A must read for completely understand who this life thing works.
  48. Learn to use and trust your subconscious/intuition. When you spend time in silence everyday, listen not for words but for a feeling that tells you to do something. Do not mistake your own reasoning and thoughts for those of your subconscious. If you can track where the thought came from, (this thought led to that thought which led to this thought, etc.) then it was not from your subconscious. Learning to accurately discern between the two will allow you to tap into knowledge that you don’t consciously have.
  49. Develop a charismatic personality. You know, the kind of personality that is surrounded by people constantly and is the life of the party. Start visualizing yourself as THAT person. Maybe take a short course on dynamic speaking and learn some jokes. Take the time to learn some party tricks and sleight of hand. Most importantly, believe that you already are charismatic even if you fail at beign the center point of the next party. Lie to yourself constantly and tell yourself that you are more warm and gregarious than Ronald Regan. Belief is the first step! Reality will come soon after.
  50. Love is all there is. If you truly want to be a master of life, let love be in your every action. Love your friends, family and enemies alike. This is the most difficult thing to do out of this entire list, which is why it is listed at #50. But if you accomplish this, you will be seen as a leader among everyone that allows hate, envy, disgust and all other negative emotions into their lives. Think Gandhi. Love is so rare in this world when compared to the massive presence of hate that by exuding love, you will immediately see yourself and the people around you change. Love. Love. Love.

wow. hate this week. [Sunday
December 5th, 2010 at 7:34pm]
[ mood | busy ]

screw finals. screw the male gender.
why do i bother. i am about to quit dating.
its just stupid, it never goes anywhere for me.
its more frustrating than anything.
last night, i was thinking before a went to bed, and i was thankful that i was alone and had no one to worry about/think about
before a feel sleep.
no desires or yearning. no attention needed. i feel asleep content. is it better to be alone?
maybe. at least for  me it is. i should just accept that.
my lonely feeling? normal? who knows, but maybe i am better off that way.
i need to find another muse, or vice. what should it be? im out of ideas.
stuck? i feel like it. im just really excited to go to century tonight, its harvest moon ball! wooo!!
but i think i may need some more caffeine.

im just angry that dudes are so rude and oblivious. can any one have the courtesy to tell me why they ignore me? yeah that would be nice. i feel like i keep getting tossed to the side.
im just too nice to people i dont know and then im disappointed when they dont return the enthusiasm.


angry [Friday
December 3rd, 2010 at 4:19pm]
[ mood | angry ]

ive been angry for the last few weeks.
its funny because im normally never just angry.
well who can blame me? im not in a good spot. i need same change. wow.
i need it.
so when the quarter is over my room is getting a make over.
its about time
i need a lot of change.
i need myself to change.
im sick of me and my ways.
why cant i be who i want to myself to be?
why am i holding myself back? but from what?
*sigh* until then ill just be sitting in cafe ladro sneaking peeks at the cute barista.
the dudes that work here are pretty cute.
why am i so obsessed with boys? do i really want a boyfriend that bad?
i guess. i just want someone to care about me.
im sick of caring about myself. so i need someone else to tell me in good enough?
maybe, im too hard on myself. its always about me and my downfalls.
what have i messed up lately? nothing, i just need to do better, always.
but where does it get me? ANGRY.
yay. thats one feeling i dont get often.
normally im just depressed or sad.  angry angry. grrrr. oh welllll.
maybe it will pass when finals are over.
if i can finish them. im starting to doubt im ability to do well enough in school.
i really want good grades this quarter but im starting to see that i may not be able to do everything i want to in order to do as well as i want.
my priorities are screwed up. i need emotional stability so i used others. damn. i suck. then i get attached.

well eric called it off yesterday. im just happy hes mature enough to call and talk about it. wow. as stupid as i am when it comes to dating older dudes  (and immature) they treat my feelings with respect for once. wow. i may not be right for them, but they sure make me feel better.
how wonderful. i cant even express my gratitude towards eric for even talking it out. man. thats a first. and why is it over? haha. i need to hold on to him. well, it didnt click. it was merely just attraction- and my stupidity and frustration. typical. blame it on me. well he didnt. but he said he just didnt feel it. and thank you for using your words and being straight up with me. so appreciated! ugh. wow, now i can just move on and not be toyed with. i may be later but not by him. so great.! im not all caught up in the emotional (does he like me blah blah). that was a good experience. thank you eric. after i thought you were an asshole you turned out the be the nicest one of them all. :)
i will miss you if i dont see you again. youre a wonderful and interesting person. i hope you find what youre looking for.
im hopeless.


love [Saturday
September 25th, 2010 at 5:22pm]
maybe someday ill find a man to love me forever.

I wish the world was like survivor and you could vote people off the planet! [Wednesday
February 24th, 2010 at 9:55pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

I would vote off my ex. he is planning to sabotage my birthday because i didnt answer his email. so what if i am not ready to talk to him. i told him 3 months. 3 months and we would try a friendship, now there is no way we will be friends. he is going dancing on the only night i want to go to. he chose this either purposely to piss be off, selfishly, or out of spite- he claims its fair. humm and who had the option to go wednesays 7 months ago? i dont know, it wasnt me! but now i can. and he will be there. he couldnt have chose another night. wow. thats for reading the calander i made you all abou the different dances and abusing everything i gave you. thanks for "doing the right thing." i like that you knew i have been waiting for this night for 2 years.
i am FINALLY 21, and this was the only reason i wanted to be 21. you jerk. but its okay becasue i will be having all the fun and you will be so jealous. way to come in to MY SPACE, and MY ZONE. what do you want to prove to me? youre just going to be angry that i dont care about you  and none of my friends will talk to you. i hope you know that i it wont be fun for you, all of the dancers on wednesdays are snobs, they wont want to dance with you anyways. have fun sitting on the side lines.
so, when youre sitting there, remember all those mean things you have said to be whether or not they accor to you as rude, remember that you lost me because youre an asshole. and i never want anything to do with you every again.


desparate [Saturday
February 6th, 2010 at 8:53pm]
[ mood | determined ]

im desperate for something to do on a saturday night. i have three weeks until im 21 and i dont what where to find fun.
my old saturdays was hanging out with my ex.
now im at a loss.
i feel like a loser- not because i have anything to do but because i keep asking people about the things going on.
like every weekend. i need plans. and all my current friends are older guys who want to go to bars, im down, i just cant get in.
so im looking for parties and i feel dumb asking.
im trying to make new friends! its hard. i feel like a stalker. you know always asking someone to hang out that you dont really know.
i understand building a friendship needs to happen over time and slowly sometimes, but i dont have that time right now.
i need to be preoccupied.


RAVE [Sunday
January 31st, 2010 at 10:43pm]
front he Knowles ive acquired over the last 6 months
ive never been more happy to be single.
its so fun!
i didnt realize what a commitment a relationship is or how restrictive it is.. haha not in a bad way..(just depends on who your with)
i dont have to do certain things or be a certain way, i can do anything i want!
i can think any boy is cute, and mean it. yay!
i mean it sucks to break up and get over that person, but now i have the whole world at my hands.
just find me someone good. now i know how worth it a good match it.
i just don't want to waste my time. chemistry is a tricky thing. you may be attractive or smell good but it comes down to primal instinctive things sometimes. you know, is she active, does she have baby bearing hips, etc. or what is his jaw line like, is he athletic, is he smart, how ig are his hands.
i cant help but think stead: is his family nice, what is his religion, what style does he have, how narrow minded is he, etc. man i dont even know what my primal instincts are besides what does he smell like? haha pheromones! etc..
lalala. i hope that had some back bone to it.
but then the thought of what do dudes look for besides this idea of a girl what is good to recipracte genetically with?
personality, substance, hygiene, personality, patience, outgoing, funny, etc. i dont know the personailty traits..? i'm just guess.
the things i try to have consist of some of the above: (when i meed a guy) i try to look nice, take care of myself, work out, have interesting conversations, sudo brag.
the things i like to 'drop' around a guy im attracted by: family influences, the importance of family, interests, comprehensiveness, etc.
its funny isnt it?
i think things a guy drops (depending on what he wants): family importance, how often they like to work out, how sexually active they are, interests, and what ever else they can pull out of their ass.

oh the difference. but how do those 'droping' assess what they look for in a companion, only god knows.

OMG [Sunday
January 31st, 2010 at 3:59pm]
hello LJ, its been forever! i couldnt even remember my username :)

April 11th, 2009 at 2:28am]
after dancing at the russian center we went to dicks. we (meaning me and rachel) met this awesome guy who is homeless. he is a refugee from ukraine, who left becasue he was percecuted as a christian. he just was telling us about his troubles and what its like. at the end rachel asked him is the reason he came to american was for a better life. Rachel then proceeded to say that God has a plan for him and that he will get that better life. I wanted to cry. it was so powerful.

other than that my day has been shit. im numb. i could care less about what i do, and what reactions my actions cause.

i also did a photo shoot with charlie. it was great. we did it in the quad at UW where i saw my friend damian. i went to talk to him afterwards and there was this guy next  to him that i had previously stalked on FB. werid. i felt like i already knew him-- dont worry i didnt remember his name. then i asked damian to come to the ave with me. i proceeded to get food and walk to the bus. i got close to talk to him and he moved away. then when he said by, i didnt even get a hug. i come off so strong. guy must think i love them when i dont.  :( im a potential friendship ruiner.

urls i love [Friday
April 10th, 2009 at 3:18pm]

April 2nd, 2009 at 7:07pm]
i hate the feeling of desperation. ugh

nothing but platonic love exists [Wednesday
March 18th, 2009 at 8:05pm]
and Jesus's love

because i felt like it [Sunday
December 14th, 2008 at 10:26pm]
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circuits lab [Saturday
December 6th, 2008 at 6:07pm]
im listening to david crowder with my lab partner. he is very unimpressed by my motivational antics.
im killing myself in school. i dont even know...
nor do i want to talk about it because im so embaressed.
this week is killer diller ball weekend.
last night was so good. i started out having a bad time- my dancing was lacking.
soon enough it  started to pick up. i competed in the endurance comp. just for fun. luckily my partner was the one
to cop out. I stuck it through!!1 WOOOT.
um yeah. it was good.
tonight it a live band and is 17 dollars.
no way am i paying that. im so broke as is and i cant ask my parents for that money.. :[
um yeah, its too bad. but i need to go to work tomorrow all day long.
5 hours of sports x and then like 5 of babysitting.
no time to do my physics hw. i guess i can do it monday before 4 pm.
still im not even going to killer diller becasue i wanted to wake up in the morning.
not fair.
why couldnt this be next weekend?
i really could use the workshops. oh well.
going to these really makes me realize how much i need to work on in order to improve.
yay. at least i know. ha.

i just keep fucking my life up [Monday
December 1st, 2008 at 6:07pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

i skipped all my classes today, im looking attention in all the wrong places, im not putting any effort fort to further myself, all i want to do is dance.
fuck everything else. i just want to dance.
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November 18th, 2008 at 8:12pm]
soo i dont understand why all of my friends are depressed. actually i do, but i dont know how to handle them, or help them. I REALLY want to help, i dont just want to pray. I dont know what God's will is but whatever it is, it is for the best. Its hard when i just want to do eveything myself anf fix it, but i need to remind myself that no matter how hard i try i cant and/or it wont even me nearly as good as what God will do/ has in store.

November 17th, 2008 at 5:25pm]
Dang, dude. Take a look!
I spilled all my London Fog
in your teal pants crotch.
-laura g

life [Monday
November 10th, 2008 at 12:51am]
[ mood | head cold ]

im now a math major
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im sick [Wednesday
November 5th, 2008 at 1:21pm]


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October 22nd, 2008 at 3:28pm]
well joel has a new girl.
i left my guy.
do i have no one left?
mandy :] i gots her. no more boys.

i need to remember that what the Lord has for me is much better than
i could ever think up. i do not want to be messing with things
that are not his will, i know they can only turn out for the worse.
he is go great, why do i ever forget?

i had a great time last night hanging out with mandy, it was nice.
well, for some reason i was super tired this morning and barely made it to
physics. i went to the doctor then took a nap and slept through circuits.
i feel much more awake but i wish i wouldnt have missed it since i have a test
on friday. tonight i am going to do my physics hw and study for circuits.
here is a picture of me a jenn that i am sending to our floor's ethiopian
boy, kaleb



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